Day 7

I never realised I was so impatient! Day 7 and I am expecting results speech wise, and have also noticed I am ever so slightly disappointed that my teeth havent moved yet!! Lol I know its a slow process tho and aware that my expectations are completely unrealistic so not overly disappointed!

I took a day off yesterday and LEFT THE HOUSE for the first time in a week!!! Went out for the day with my other half, who has been totally amazing this past week and really cheered me up yday! However lunch wasnt all that fun, it took me so long to eat my pizza that it went cold... and he snaffled all the chips!! I reckon he's gonna love this next few months and probably put on a few extra pounds as a result haha! It was lovely to get out, altho of course I took my insecurities with me and was convinced that everyone who heard me talk looked in sympathy at 'that poor girl with the lisp!' In all honesty I doubt anyone cared in the slightest, and its not like I'll ever see them again anyway!! But it was still a strange experience feeling so vulnerable for such a silly reason!!

Cleaning my teeth in a public bathroom was a bit of a concern, I managed to find a disabled toilet with its own sink and seeing as the restaurant was very quiet I snuck in there... felt a bit guilty tho in case it was needed so sooner or later I am gonna have to face my fear of brushing in public! I've never liked brushing my teeth in front of anyone, even family/housemates so thats gonna be a bit of a challenge when i'm back in the real world! Again my interdental brushes were a godsend tho and made it that little bit easier to get clean quick!

Have set aside the entire week next week to practice talking, desperately need to see some improvements before I go back to work and face the world!! From going through the alphabet and trying to say different words I have identified that 's' is definitely the worst altho it seems generally ok when its a 'sh' sound. Also having a few probs forming 'l' when I try to speak too fast and 't' can be difficult in some words, and 'x' is a bit of a problem in words like 'excited' which become one big lisp and 'z' doesnt sound quite right but not too bad... I've also noticed 'd' isnt always quite right on the ends of words, like my mouth loses the ability to finish the words off! It really is exhausting because its such an effort all the time, for something that used to be so normal and easy... just crossing my fingers it will get easier! Its not *quite* as bad as I expected, but in reality its obviously more difficult to deal with than before you have the braces put on and you're willing to deal with absolutely anything to get your teeth fixed!!